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♥ Thursday, January 19, 2006
9:19 PM

Dont know how to express myself in my blog..

First, heartache for the reason of my so-called b/f. It's been more than a week since we last spoke to one another. No sms from him. Yes, a letter sprayed with the perfume I loved. But that's not enough. Probably, he's enjoying himself in other's company and glad that he has gained back all the freedom? (I am having too much of imagination..) I don know, really. At times, I confessed, I missed him, but again, same thing.. it's seems that I too, have gained that freedom, unrestricted freedom..

Especially this week, just as I thought that all my bosses even my direct boss are away for business trip means that I have more freedom. Less work, to knock off on time. How wrong I am! All the visitors and consultants flooded my office. I am busily booking rooms, doing the travel logistics etc. And one changes his travel plans with no adv notice as and when as he wants! Sigh.. very tired. Focusing so much that it created a headache, I need a good massage on my forehead! This pain is killing me this week. Working late... Jia You Jia You!! One more working day to weekend. One of the factor is insufficient sleep! Serves me right for chatting on the net and chatting over the phone with ex-colleagues and friends etc. Well, I have no one close to my heart to turn to. My spiritual "mommy" supports my decision of temporary separation.... My tots? Dont know what will happened that later. Will we drift away with this rough decision I made? Even my ex-colleague said dont ask those who are single for advices, ask from those who are happily married.. learn from them, their happiness. Not from those who talked about their brokenhearted past. Really, should that be that way. I do agree.. more or less I see his point of view..

Grrgghh.. that pain is killing me... sleeping early tonight, if I can.