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♥ Sunday, January 15, 2006
6:01 PM

I logged into my blog. First thing I saw is my blog's name "You are my sunshine". Well, out of a sudden, my heart felt that the sunshines has hidden itself behind the clouds, like the downpour for the past days. It will take a long time before that sun comes out and be shinning in the skies.

Last night, I was online chatting with 2 person. Ms. A - my ex-colleague, Ms. B - my so called b/f's friend's galfriend.

Let's talk about Ms. A, my ex-colleague. I guessed she is trying to cheer me up by asking me to chat with her and her hubby. They are chatting in the same house, but one in the living room and the other is in the study room. She explained that this is to give 'space' to one another and to let each other do their likes.

Ms. B who was angry with her b/f for not accompanying her. Her b/f has forgotten about her existence while with the rest gang of friends. She was frustrated that he put on a smiling face with the gang whereas when alone with her, his face was very indifferent.

Mmmm... Ms. B's situation sounds very familiar to me. Well, that's because I have been in her shoes. But in comparsion, that's only part of issues that you have to go through in a BGR. There are more hurdles than just complaining at times. Not trying to say that she's demanding. I too, loved to have his company too in the past and demands for it. But sometimes, you just need to let go and sometimes, to be direct and tell him the unhappiness and things that bothers you - be truthful about your own feelings.

As for Ms. A - a hubby who is understanding and a great cook (I heard). But if I give that freedom, will we lost each other forever? She is legally married, but time passes.. the customary traditional marriage has dragged on. And maybe there wont be one since they have moved in their new house, also no point of having one.. Am I like her? Taking the relationship - it exist and drags on.. that's why I hang on to it? I pinned hopes on him but he doesnt at all.. Sigh..

My mind is now empty, will stop here.