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♥ Wednesday, May 03, 2006
8:54 PM

It's been 2 weeks since the Kukup trip.. and we are still talking about it.

I thank God for providing the wonderful weather, fun and joy we have shared. The pics that I took turns out to be extremely nice!! I also cant believe it! :) 65 bucks for transport, meals and accommodation (2D1N) - it's worth every cents! I bought the local products (yum..). They have home-made agar agar, preserved mango, sambal chilli, dried sotong etc.

In the midst of our joy and laughters, a bad news broke. My CG leader will be leaving the group, church for good. I dont know how to react, tears just flow down my cheeks. I spent a silence evening pondering.. why why? I felt angry with God. Why he give me a loving spiritual family and then break it? I just cant put on the smile when i faced her. While we were out shopping, I tot of buying a gift for her. Asking her which soft toy she liked, I bought it secretly and stuff it into her bag with help of the gals. By the evening, she knew it was me when someone gave her a hint. She asked why. I told her it's my farewell gift to her so that she will always think of us. Sadness, sorrow.. We prayed together. I saw the vision of a beautiful butterfly. .. A beautiful buttefly has to have its freedom to be flying in the blue skies. But once you captured and keep it; its life will end. Everyone, including me have to let her go.. It was sad but I knew that there will be a purpose for her, me and a new chapter in our lives.

"To GL,

It is very heartbroken to know that you are leaving us in the midst of the joy. I am glad that God has drawn us closer and you are always my spiritual Ah-Ma in my heart. I thanked God for the times we shared. Thank you for being such a good friend and a good leader to me. Thank you for your patience and sharings. Thank you for being part of my life.

I will not bid farewell cause I know we will meet again though I will not see you in church or in the cell. But it's another new chapter of your life. You will be that beautiful butterfly I saw in my vision. You will be free to fly without worries and admire by others that the beauty will be seen.

I pray that He will always be there to see you through the ups and downs, bless you and your loved ones always. I pray that the man of your life will appear soon and he will be the mighty warrior to protect and love you more than anyone of us.

Take very good care. "

Farewell my CGL