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♥ Thursday, November 09, 2006
12:02 AM

I felt so tired.

All above mentioned came together as we intend to tie the knots together.

Marriage preparations. I felt drained because somehow mentally not prepared, especially for him. I felt that I am always left to be the decision maker as he cant give a reply or no time to do the sourcing most of the time. No support from his family. But thankfully, my sister is able to comfort me as she sees the issues. Now, then she knows taking it easy is not easy and why I am always mistaken for throwing temper.

House issues. Still hunting and yet to come. When it comes, it's all about money money.

Now, car issue. Car has seriously broke down and the best alternative is to repair and to prevent great loss - Buy another car under same brand and get slightly higher loan.

All these comes together that cause so much misunderstanding and kinda thinking whether:
1) postpone wedding
2) delay housing, stay separately after marriage
3) go w/o car for a few months

I dont know how to explain to many. But I had so much struggles at one time. It's leading me to collapse.. The way God needs me to assist to mould a person is hard, painful and difficult process. The hills I climbed is getting higher and higher that I am running out my oxygen tank.

Going thru wedding preps with disagreement coming is inevitable when it comes to planning and related decision. Yes, many has gone thru this stage and key is to exercise love and patience. But I am so tired, I am really trying very hard to cope..

Tired. I have tried.. really trying, very hard..